12.13.12

The Earth is so old.
I  typically tend toward thinking of things solely as they "relate to" me, but at times?  At times...

At times i have thoughts of
"I wonder if anyone has ever died on this very spot where i stand?"

It *could* be true.  The  Earth *is* very old.

This very spot could be sacred to someone i've never met, and likely never *will*, solely because of that "Time factor".



I try to think of People in that way, too.

I don't pretend to know *everything* that's happened in anybody's life, so i try to treat everyone as if they've had *some* sort of Trauma...  or Event...
*Something* that makes me treat them with a certain Respect, and a certain "Delicate-ness".


But i'm not steady and "predictable" in my ways,  so there are also times - *most* times -  when i treat people as if they're "just like me", and they just need a Good Laugh.

Getting ready for Senior Prom

& *wishing* my Mom would 

"just leave me alone for a minute!!!"

I  hope you're having a Wonderful Day!

And i hope your Tomorrow is Awesome as well.   =-)

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I've Been...

wanting to write something, but i don't have a picture to go with it.
And when i say "something", i don't mean anything in particular.  Just "SOMEthing".  =-)
Just a blurb.
Just something for today.

So, here is *something*.

That's my dear "Assistant", Allie.
We've had her since Bunny was in 6th grade.
That's over TEN years!
I'm not really sure how old she was when we got her 'cause we "adopted" her when she was already an adult.
But she's SO SMART!
And she's been such an awesome dog!

...

She's getting so old.
She's also going deaf.
I'm certain of it, 'cause if i ask her, "You want a Cookie?" very quietly, she doesn't move a muscle.
And half the time when the doorbell rings, she just sits there silently, instead of barking like mad like she used to - which bothers me and makes me happy at the same time, because she wants to defend me. 
It's so sad.

And she carries her bowl around quite a bit lately.
I don't know if she just gets comfort from having it near.  I'm sure she's not *really* hungry; i actually think she's honestly *forgotten* that she's already eaten.

And she's losing her teeth.  
And she seems to be getting Arthritis, 'cause she sort of limps and halts and grunts when she gets up and starts moving around.

She's definitely not the Pup she used to be.

And she's started waking me up in the early morning 'cause she needs to go outside.

And her face is becoming more white than orange-ish.
And she has little cysts/tumors popping up on her in various places.
And she just lies around most of the time now.

It's sad, the slow "disappearing" of my faithful companion.

I'm gonna cry my eyes out when she passes...



But Boyfriend will be happy!  =-)


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Happy Halloween (And Yes, I Know I'm 2 Days Early)!

I absolutely LOVE Halloween!

And Dressing Up!

(Which is a little bit surprising, because i'm usually so serious about things.)

But Boyfriend and i went to TWO Halloween parties this past Saturday evening:

one was a friend of mine, and the other was a co-worker of Boyfriend's.

We had a fun time at both, but i think i had more fun at the co-worker's 'cause there was Dancing!  

I love to dance!

And Dancing *while* dressed up?!?!

Bonus!!!   (Unless it's a cumbersome costume, of course.)

We went as Pirates, though looking at the picture, Boyfriend certainly looks more like a pirate than i do...  But we had fun!!!  And isn't that what it's all about, anyway?  =-)

Me & Boyfriend, Halloween 2012

Just before going out!

(Thank you Kitty for letting me borrow the dress & tutu!)   =-)

I can't remember if i blogged about it, but i dressed up a couple of weekends back to go to the local Renaissance Festival with my daughters.  Kitty & i *usually* dress up when we go to Ren Fest.  We LOVE it!  I think we love it *because* of all the costumes.  =-)  Tons of people dress up, and when it first began, most people were mainly into "authentic" costumes.  You know, dress that was accurate to the period.  No zippers or plastic or anything like that, 'cause that stuff hadn't been invented yet.
But now?!  Now, most people kinda throw together whatever they feel like, and wear *that* to the Ren Fest.  
And I LOVE IT!!!
I'm *not* against "authenticity" by any means!
But if i don't have the time, or the money, or the desire, or the *what-have-you* to acquire an "authentic" costume, i don't think *that* should stop me from dressing up and having fun and being HAPPY at the Ren Fest!!!
It may be just me.
Whatever.

Here's a picture of me with a friend:


.....


Well CRAP!  I thought i had a picture of us on my computer, but apparently my daughter sent it to me in a text message...  So *now* i'll have to figure out how to get it off of my phone and onto my computer!!!

...it's gonna be awhile...
Please don't wait.
And REALLY don't hold your breath!


How about an old one of Boyfriend & me on a Halloween about 5 to 7 years ago?

An Old-fashioned Gangster & his Flapper

Hmmm...  That's funny.  Allllll the times i've dressed up for Halloween, and i can't find any pictures?!?!  Guess i'll have to do a bit of research on this subject...
'Cause i *know* we've had pictures taken of us!!!


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I've been thinking lately about compliments & critiques...
Why is it that it's easier for us to "accept" a critique than it is 
to accept a compliment?

When someone tells me "Your hair's a mess." i hear and accept it without a second's hesitation, and i get this internal dialogue going about what a mess my hair really is.
But when someone tells me, "I love your hair!" i get all this internal dialogue about what a mess my hair really is.  It's almost as if i never even *heard*  the compliment!

And i'm only using my hair as an example here.
It's the same thing with *ANY* compliment/critique.
I'm sure it probably has something to do with survival, and needing to evaluate ourselves in order to "better" ourselves along the journey, but really?  We've taken to criticizing ourselves too much!

We take the Negative to heart, and allow the Positive to be brushed off so easily.

So, here's something for you (and me) to try.
When someone gives you a compliment - about *anything!* - try to Honestly *hear* it.  
Maybe even repeat what the person says!

And also?  Allow the Adult-you to talk to the Child-you, to nurture the Child-you, to comfort the Child-you.  
Allow the Adult-you to compliment the Child-you, and allow the Child to 
Truly Hear the compliment - to receive it.
We need to stop putting ourselves down.
We need to start patting ourselves on the back a bit.

We need to show ourselves Love.


I hope you have a WONDERFUL week!!!!!
I'll try to figure out how to get that other picture on my computer so you can see it too.
=-)

I Keep Meaning to Write a Post...

I keep wanting to write a post...
I keep thinking about writing a post...
I keep thinking i *should* write a post...

But i just don't have loads to say lately.
I mean that in real life, too.  I've never been a very talkative person.
But i feel lately like i'm a little extra quiet.
Not sure what's going on in there, but, that's my Truth today.

Last week...
Last Tuesday, my sister-in-law had surgery for Breast Cancer.
She has/had Stage 2a breast cancer on her right side.
My Dad left last Monday to help them out - to be there for my brother, his wife, and their 14 y.o. son.  He's gonna stay for a month or two.
He's Awesome.

I've been thinking about her all last week, and a ton this week.
I want to send her e-mails, but i don't want to intrude or bother her.
I want to call, and go see her...  But i hesitate.

I'm not sure if i'd want "visitors" if it was me.

I sent her an email a few weeks ago, telling her that i've been thinking about her, and that i've been sending her Energy and Good Vibes, and dedicating my Yoga practice to her for 2 weeks now.

I have no idea if it helps her, but i think it helps me to feel a little better about the situation.

And with her on my mind so much lately, and everything on tv about Breast Cancer Awareness month, i remembered that i haven't had my mammogram yet this year, so i scheduled that.
It's tomorrow.
I hope i don't cry.
For some reason, i feel a little like crying for my sister-in-law.
I wonder if she had reconstructive surgery, or if she's gonna be a "uni-boob", like Melanie Testa's been talking about lately.

When i first heard from my brother about T (my sister-in-law), i immediately felt "She's gonna be fine.  It will all turn out okay."
And now?  Now i feel like mourning a bit.

I'm sort of in a weird place today.
Maybe it's not the best day for me to post.

But i had a bit of time, so i thought i would. 


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I've been cooking a bit lately!
I made the best Crock Pot Chicken a few days ago.  Ohmygod, Delicious!!!
Got the recipe from 100 Days of Real Food.
You should *so* try it!  Seriously!
And i also made the Chicken Stock that night, and freezed it the next morning.
SO so delicious!!!  *And* it was easy!  Can't beat that!  =-)
And i used the Chicken Stock yesterday and made her Butternut Squash Soup, and, *oh* *my* *word* it was awesome!!!
I didn't even know if i liked Butternut Squash.  (rolling eyes)
But i guess i do!  =-)

You should at least look around her site.
Too much wheat for me, but tons of other great recipes, menu plans, tips and hints, nice photos, and tons of information!

...maybe i'll go to the Farmers Market tomorrow.

I hope you're having a WONDERFUL DAY!!!
=-)

Yoga Post

Finally!

Today, i *finally* feel like i taught a Good Class for my Slow Flow class at the Studio.  =-)

The first time i taught this Slow Flow class (Sept 4th), it was as if i was standing beside myself, watching myself and thinking "What the HECK are you DOING?!", but i was powerless to stop myself!  

I didn't give a Slow Flow class, but a fast Vinyasa class (flowing & moving with the breath, fast, with sweating involved) with tons of Downward Facing Dogs in it!  
I *knew* i was f*ckin' up, but i couldn't stop myself!  
I had six people in that class, and most of them typically take Vinyasa-type classes (i.e. more difficult than Slow Flow), so i guess i kinda got a little freaked out by that, and my brain couldn't handle trying to give them Slow Flow when i honestly felt they were there for "Hard & Fast".  
Plus, i had a *ton* of Downward Facing Dogs in it, and i'm *tryin'* to gear this class toward seniors, people recovering from surgery and/or injury, people wanting to become more flexible (like athletes; runners, weight lifters, ball players, golfers, etc), and those wanting a slower pace.  
Down Dog is honestly *not* "the most comfortable" pose.  It's a difficult posture for *lots* of folk.
Anyway.

So the second week, i slowed it down, but it still wasn't what i was supposed to be teaching...  But it was easier for me because i only had one student, and she's a yoga instructor, so i at least was able to be calmer, and to stop when i needed to without me worrying about what she was thinking about me.  (I'm comfortable with Kat, and not intimidated by her.)
And, Bonus, after class i had her give me an honest critique.

But i know that the real thing i need is
Experience.  More and more practice at Teaching Yoga Class.

The third week, i once again had six people in my class, but THREE of them  were instructors (one of whom i felt was judging me the whole time {though i think that was only in *my* head!}), so i was nervous.  
AND, i might have slowed the pace down, and taken all the Down Dogs out of the mix, but i replaced them with

A *Ton* of FORWARD FOLDS!!!

So once again i was fussing at myself all the way home after class...
Not Good.

Yes, i talk to myself about not being negative about myself.
I also tell myself this is just Yoga, and not Brain Surgery (THANK THE STARS!!!)!
But when i *know* i didn't really do a good job, i cannot "fake it" with myself into thinking it's okay.  I honestly WANT to be a Really Good Yoga Instructor.
I want to be able to help people to feel the way *I* feel after taking a really good Yoga class.

But back to today. (Sept 25th; the fourth time i've taught this class)

Today.  =-)

Well, the Heavens didn't open up and the angels didn't sing, but near the end of class, i knew.  
I just *knew* that i had *finally* taught a GOOD Slow Flow class.

And i can't tell you how wonderful that makes my Heart feel!

Sure, i only had two students, but i don't care.  I honestly like it BEST when i only have one student.  I worry about each individual too much when i'm teaching more than one, and i worry that it's too much for this person and not enough for that person, and that really messes with my MoJo, and that's when i start screwing up and getting too caught up in my head and worrying about every-little-thing.
Today's class was Kat (the instructor i'm really comfortable with), and a guy i've seen in the studio a handful of times.  He's relatively new to Yoga, and so i was really comfortable treating *his* Yoga like i treat my Dad's Yoga.  I knew Kat would push herself further where she needed pushing, so i only gave cues for the guy's benefit.  It was a Good Class.  I didn't have them do *any* Downward Dogs; the Forward Folds were minimal, and i didn't have them hold them forever; i had them step back from Mountain into their Crescents &  Warriors.  I even had them do a couple of Planks!
It was a Good Slow Flow class!  =-)

And i *finally* didn't fuss at myself on the way home from teaching Tuesday's Slow Flow class.

{deep inhale, deep exhale}  (a sigh of relief, really)

Now i just need to figure out some different things to have them do when we're on the floor for their seated exercises.  ;-)

Baby Steps of Improvements.


Smooth Sailing for Today.

Photo by Bunny

I hope you're having an Absolutely Awesome Day!!!


=-)
W

9/9/12

Sorry i haven't posted sooner, but i haven't really felt like "talking".  I haven't been depressed, though; just quiet.  

My Full Blue Moon Gathering on the 31st went well.

I invited 13 people, and believe it or not, 13 came.
*Not* the same 13 i originally invited, but whatever.  Semantics, i guess.

I was happy with it.
I didn't, however, get any pictures.
Sorry.
I wish i had thought of it, but i was too busy trying to socialize with everyone.  =-)
Plus, i don't think many would have wanted me &/or Boyfriend roaming around snapping pics of everyone.

And the Moon was gorgeous that night!  
It was only partly cloudy that night - just enough to be romantic - and i loved glancing up throughout the evening, and seeing where she had floated to along the sky.

It was a beautiful night, and a very nice party.
It was also nice for me to (finally) reach out to others.
And i discovered that i can reach out to others, and not be smacked on the hand while doing so.
Sure, there were people who didn't RSVP.  But that's okay.  I tried not to take it personally.  Stuff happens.
And i also had to have a little talk with myself that, despite my truth that i'd like for everyone to like me,
everyone doesn't *have to*.  And i don't need to stress over that.

But i'm thinking i may or may not have a gathering for the next full moon.
Haven't decided yet.
I think i'll wait 'til it gets a little closer.  Or maybe i'll just wait 'til October to "worry" about it.  =-)
Or maybe i'm just Miss Scarlett.   HAhaha!  =-)

So here's a picture i'll leave you with;
it's my Beautiful and Awesome daughters with me in our backyard.
It wasn't taken that night, but it was taken not too long ago, so i thought i'd include it.
It was a happy evening.

I hope you have a Wonderful Week.

Or at least you can find a Moment that was Wonderful to be thankful for.

=-)

Something I Needed to Find Today

In reading blog posts today, one blog led to another when...
i stumbled across something i'm needing to hear:

"Fear is just Excitement
in need of an Attitude Adjustment!"

Yes, i need to recite that lately.
Thank you Universe for sending it my way.

I'll post about my Blue Moon Gathering later.
Promise.
(Hadn't planned on posting here today, but then i found the above and just *had* to "put it somewhere".)   =-)

photo by Pam

August 29th

So, i haven't blogged about these yet...

In the quilting world, there are these little things called
Mug Rugs.
They are supposed to be like cloth coasters for your coffee/tea mug (or whatever drink you prefer), but just a little bit bigger so you have a place to put your cookie (or biscotti or whatever).
Well, i had these squares i put together one day with some extra fabric i had around the house... and i was trying to just "wing it" to make "something" for a possible new quilt... but then when i saw the fabrics together, i was really disappointed 'cause nothing "went together"!
I almost threw the squares in the trash, but then!  In wandering around on the web, i came across the Mug Rugs and decided i could just embroider something cute in the center of these, put a backing on them, and
Voila!  

...only... Honestly?  They're really too big to be Mug Rugs...
And they're a little too small to be pot holders (and not thick enough, either, really)...
But i keep them on my dining room table, and Boyfriend and i use them occasionally as "something" between a hot dinner plate & our hands.  =-)

Besides, they're cute and they make me smile.   =-)

Elephant

I got this embroidery pattern from

soseptember.blogspot.com

(with permission, for personal use only)

(click on the picture to "biggify")

I think it's SO adorable!

Close up

The elephant is embroidereded on first, 

and then i put the backing fabric on & quilted it

This sun is from Kelly King of

colorfuldayz.com

{though i can't find her online now...   Anyone?)

(with permission, for personal use)

(Sorry it's a fuzzy picture... i didn't have my reading glasses on)

close up

 Back of the Sun

Again, i embroidered first,

then put on the backing fabric & quilted it

Snowman

Can't remember where i got this embroidery pattern from...

Anyone?!?

The back of the Snowman

(Sorry, but it's sideways... not sure why; 

my original pic i downloaded isn't sideways!)

Again, first embroidered

then quilted the backing on

Close up of the Snowman

(Again not sure why it came out sideways!

Sometimes Blogger mystifies me...)

So now i've FINALLY blogged about these!  Yay!  =-)
I made them about SIX MONTHS AGO!!!
(sometimes i am just sooo NOT in the mood to blog...)


Hope you're having a Grand Day!
=-)

August 21st

So, i *shocked* myself last night!
(Suzanne, if you're reading this, you'd better be sitting down!)  =-)

I sent out an e-mail to FIFTEEN of my female friends (including my daughters), inviting them to come to a Full Moon/Blue Moon Gathering!

I know, right?  Crazy-Bold!
But i've been thinking about holding Rites/Rituals/Ceremonies in my backyard, and the more i thought about that, the more it occurred to me:

"How am i ever gonna start if i don't START!?!"

So i wrote up an email, had Boyfriend read it, and then i sat there reading and re-reading it...
And Boyfriend said, "It's done.  Hit send already."

Boy, does he ever know me.  I would have sat there re-reading until i talked myself out of it, and just deleted it...


So i have people coming over on Friday the 31st!

Not sure what we're gonna do, but i'm gonna work up the nerve to tell them about my ideas about ceremonies/rites/rituals, and how i'm wanting to offer them to people in my backyard.  Who knows what may come of this?

Maybe lots of stuff, and maybe nothing, but that's okay too.  

Or maybe we'll just all wake up with headaches the next day wondering, "What happened last night...?"

Yes, there's gonna be drinking.  But not "forced"!  (I'm thinking i should probably *not* drink so i can keep a level head & be a "good hostess".)

And i even told them that the "Dress Code" is strictly "That Which Makes You Feel Wonderful!"  I'm thinking about borrowing some wings from Kitty and wearing them with a long skirt or something...  Not sure yet.

But, anyway, IT'S A START!!!  =-)
And i'm proud of myself for "breaking out of my shell",
and facing my Fear,
and taking a chance,
and actually making a plan!!!  (That's the big shocker right there.)

Who knows what'll happen next?!

But i'm feeling good about it all.

AND
I almost immediately got a response from my best friend, Joy, who declined.
AND I'M OKAY WITH IT!
Yes, i'm disappointed that she can't make it.
But it didn't send me into a tailspin of worry and sorrow and negative-stuff.
And i've already gotten a couple of yes-es.  Yay!  =-)

So, that's my Big News for the day.  =-)

I hope your day is going Swimmingly!
Try turning your face up to the sky,
closing your eyes,
and LAUGHING OUT LOUD!
With a Big, Fake "HA, HA, HA!" if that's what it takes.

I think you'll be surprised that it will actually perk you up.  =-)

Love & Light!
-W
(photo by Bunny)

August 20th, 2012 - He's Always Watching (Over) Me

Back again!  And so soon!

Shocking, i know.

But i wanted to write a post about my latest Painting...

This one is about how i've always felt like i'm being watched...

Or "watched over"...

I'm not gonna argue the point.  What i'm wanting to "document" is the Painting.

It's approximately  4' x 3'

acrylics on paper

finished August 14th, 2012

titled "He's Always Watching (Over) Me"

Here it is (in outdoors light):

{click on the picture to see the whole thing}

Bottom Left of the Painting:

That's "Him"

(I kinda wish his wings were bigger, but i painted it as i "felt" it)

{click on picture to "biggify"}

 Top Left of the Painting:
His "Spiral" & my "Spiral" match (mostly), signifying that we "go together"
That's supposed to be the Sun behind my head...
{click on picture to see the whole thing}

My blog isn't cooperating today, and my pictures are out of order...
But here it is in the full sun (except for that small section on the right, which is in shadow...)
{click on picture to see the whole thing}

Bottom Left Corner:

Those "dots" on me are Worry, Fear, Self-Doubt, etc

but it's okay because the white around them are Hope & other good stuff, which usually keeps them at bay...

The flower-looking-things started out as Bubbles (again? What's with the Bubbles?!), but i changed them and made them to look like Flowers.

I know.  Not very "intuitive painting" of me, but...  Oh well.

I like them, anyway.  =-)

{click pic to see it's entire self}

Top Right corner:
The Sun, my Spiral-link to "Him", the Flowers/vine continuing up into the sky
{click pic to see the whole photo}

So that's my post for today!

I'm really tickled that i had time to do it today.  Wasn't sure when i'd get to come back.  =-)

And i'm working on another Painting now.  NO idea when it'll be done, but...

And this new one is about Women!

Women Dancing!

The phrase that keeps running through my head while i'm painting is

"Wise Women Dance!"

I think it's about me & other women in my backyard...  Dancing under the Moon...

or something similar.

Wish me luck!!

I'll post about it when i can.

I hope you're having a Marvelous week!  It's the ONLY third full week of August 2012 you'll EVER HAVE!!!

Love & Light -

Wendy

=-)

August 19th, 2012

I'm really behind in blogging about my painting (the verb).

Back in April, i finished this one, which is *still* unnamed...

Sorry, but you'll have to click on the picture to see the entire thing

It's 3' x 4', acrylics on canvas.

"Canvas?!"  I know, right?  But it's what i had, and i wanted to give it a try.

Discovered i don't really *like* painting on canvas, though.

It started out as 3 black birds in flight...  

but as i looked and pondered... 

it switched 

and became those red/orange/yellow "wing"-type things (but envision them upside down, 'cause that's the way i painted them.

The canvas was turned the other way.

*Much* of this painting was done "upside down", actually.  

It wasn't until the girl came through that i actually turned it the other way around  and discovered that i'd been painting upside-down previously.  =-)

Don't ask me what this painting is or what it means.  I don't know.  I just painted what it "told" me to.

My daughter Kitty said the girl's an alien.

The top left corner is the sunlight; Hope. Love.  

Shining through. 

Reaching, and waiting for me to reach *for* it.

I do know those things at the right are eyes.

I think this Painting was teaching me that there is no "true" right-side-up; that "intuitive painting" is just as change-able and shifting as Real Life is.

My lesson in it all is to just "Go With It!" and "Let It Become".  

Painting *and* Life;  

"Go with it and Let it Become."

Here it is with my Lovely Assistant for perspective of scale  =-)

I think she loves having her picture taken...

Here's a close up of the bottom right corner.

I have this "thing" for bubbles in my paintings, apparently.  =-)

Not really sure what they represent, but i think it's Hope.

They come up frequently it seems.

And the eyes in this painting are because i always feel like i'm being watched

and/or being watched over.

I've *Always* felt this way.

There is *always* someone or something watching...  

All my life i've felt it.

The eyes in this painting are judging, however.

And this is the bottom left corner.

I also have a "Thing" for spirals.

I think they're Magical 

and Primal

and Beautiful

and full of Meaning and Life.

I've finished another Painting that i'll blog about soon.  I like it, even though it's "simple" (meaning it doesn't have a lot of Detail).

I'm not really sure if i "like" this unnamed Painting.

But that isn't important; it is, after all, about the *Verb*, painting, not about the Noun.  That's what Intuitive Painting is about.

And for me, it's about how i FEEL as i'm painting it!

And I LOVE painting!!!

Why don't you give it a try sometime?

Connie at Dirty Footprints Studio has a FREE course you can try for yourself.

You just might surprise yourself!

(I know *I* did!)   =-)

{Before you go to bed, look at yourself in the mirror and give yourself an Authentic Smile.  Maybe dare to tell yourself "You are Worthy!"}

August 2nd, 2012

Hmmm...
I've pondered whether to broach this topic here or not, but, ya know what?
It's *my* blog, right?
So, why not...


I've been having ideas swirling around in my head lately about 
Ceremony
Ritual
Rite of Passage
and the notion that lots of people don't "do" church, so...  Where do they get their "Rituals" now?


For years, I've loved the book series "Clan of the Cave Bear" by Jean M Auel, and in that series, there's one "scene" where a girl was raped, and she "fell into" a deep depression.  The main character, Ayla, and a "Medicine Man"/"Elder" did a "Cleansing Ceremony" for her.
That really stuck with me.
Especially when my daughter confessed to me that she'd been raped...
I offered a "Cleansing Ceremony" to her, but she's never said if she wants one or not...  So i take that as a No.   (no judgement)


But i've still been pondering ceremonies/rituals and such.
I have a friend whose husband recently left her.  That's a whole 'nother story, but in listening to her going through her "trials", it's occurred to me that maybe she would like a "Divorce Ceremony".  
You know, when you get married, all your friends and family are there behind you, showing you support and wishing you well.  But when you get divorced, you're usually all by yourself, and you feel unloved and unlovable, and alone... and maybe ashamed.  
I think a "Divorce Ceremony" would be an uplifting thing, with family and/or friends there if you want.  But with someone "officiating", telling you that you ARE lovable, and you ARE loved, and you ARE worthy, and


You Will Be Alright.
You are still YOU, and you always HAVE you, and you are Someone you can count on.
That what you are feeling is Normal.
That, this too shall pass.
That you're not "a Loser".


Sometimes... LOTS of times, we NEED to hear things from someone ELSE in order for us to really HEAR those things.
Sometimes we're just "too much in our own heads" to really listen to the Wisdom that's inside ourselves, and *that's* when we need someone else to help us through.  *That's* when we need "someone official" to let us know that

Everything Is As It Should Be.


I think i have the "perfect" back yard to hold these "Ceremonies".
And I'm beginning to think i have the Heart to hold these "Rituals".


I don't know any more than the next person, but i DO know that i would love to bring Comfort to others.


Here's what i'm thinking when i say "Ritual" and "Ceremony":
- Coming of Age Ceremony for Girls (and perhaps Boys, if i can "enlist" my husband or another adult male)
- Divorce Ceremony
- Menopause Ceremony
- Cleansing Ritual (in cases of molestation/rape) (And i KNOW this is a realllllly heavy one, and the person also NEEDS counseling, but this may help)
- Breaking Up Ceremony
- Death of a Loved One/Letting Go Ritual (again, counselling is needed here also)


These ceremonies are to mark the passages of certain "times" in our lives.
Something where others will add their Wisdom and Love to help ease you into a transition.




Anyway, that's what's been swirling through my head a lot lately.


What do you think about it?

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