Thursday, January 12, 2012

I Know, I Know...

What can i say: I'm a Slacker!

I'm not *exactly* a Slacker, though.  I *have* been busy.
Plus the Sun hasn't shone around here for a few days, so i haven't been able to take any pictures of my latest Painting, so i haven't had a whole lot of desire to post...

Okay, okay!  So i'm *not* a Slacker...

I'm a Procrastinator!   [rolling eyes] Whatever.

The Sun finally decided to shine today, so i got my busy butt out there and took photos of my latest Painting!  Yay!   Go Me!  =-)

I'm sort of proud of this one. 
I  know when you see it, you're gonna think it's a religious Icon, or a Saint, or something similar, but, honestly it's NOT!

Let me start from the beginning, which is actually a very good place to begin.

I took an online painting course from Connie that lasted 6 weeks, and i discovered that i ABSOLUTELY LOVE painting!  Her course is about the Process, and not about the Product (the outcome, the actual picture). 
(If you're at all interested, she has a FREE course you can try first to see if you might like her paid course;  Total Alignment.  LOVED it!   Then took a paid course;  BIG.  LOVED IT too!)

Anyway, i took her free course and then took a paid course, and then...
The course ended, as all things much, eventually.

So then i had a decision to make.
Do i wait and take another course with Connie, 
or do i try to decide what to paint...  On My Own?!?!

Well, her next course didn't start until January (this was back in November), and i honestly didn't want to wait that long. 
I wanted to paint, 
and i wanted to paint *now*!

But then i had another decision to make:
...what do i paint *about*?!?

Last month, i got to thinking about "what do i paint about now", and i decided to touch on the subject that i discovered while still in the beginning of the BIG course:
Why do i hold back?
Why do i deny myself so much, and worry so much?

So *that's* what i painted about.

"Why Do I Hold Back?"

It felt good while i was painting.
I thought about the fact that i've been "holding back" all my life.
I thought about how "holding back" stems from Worry.
I thought about lots of things while i was painting, but i didn't allow myself to think about whether my painting "looked right", or whether it was "good".
I Just Painted.
I painted what "felt right", and what felt good.
I talked out loud to myself while i was painting.
I asked myself questions that i didn't *need* to answer at that time.

I talked to myself A LOT while i painted this one.
And if felt Right.
It felt Good.

I didn't come up with any "answers" during this painting time, but at least i was asking myself the "right" questions.  =-)

I *know* they were the right questions, because they "painted out".
(Don't ask me to explain that one; i'm not really sure how to answer it.  I just know in my Heart that what i was doing was Right and Good.)  =-)

Sorry.  I've had coffee, so i tend to yak a lot when i've had coffee.
Without further "ado", here's

"Holding Back & Worry"  (Dec. 2011)

I know it's difficult to tell without anything to "scale"  it, but
it's about 3' wide x 5' tall.

And sorry about the shadows too!
Here's another shot where i moved the Painting a bit 
to effectively "move" the shadows...

I "warned" you before that she looks kinda like a religious Icon or Saint or somemthing.  That was NOT my intention when i was painting it!
I was just "painting what i felt"!
Painting without questioning "why".
Painting that which felt "Right".

...did i mention that i don't like her eyes?
I think they're "fuxxed up"!
But that's not my problem!
That is what "came out", so that's what's there.

...and that's really why i'm not posting any close-ups of this one.
I don't want you to nit-pick either.
It is what it is.

...and i like it.
Now, don't get me wrong!  If i sit around and "analyze" it, then i can see EVERY LITTLE IMPERFECTION!
But that's not the point in Connie's painting courses!
The point is
to paint!
And so that's what i did.


I hope you're having a marvelous day!

...and if you're not?
Well, then, you'd better turn around!
Lift your head up and LAUGH OUT LOUD!
That always makes me feel a little bit better,
even when i'm in one of my Dark Places.

It's another glorious day!
And you've been given the miracle and blessing of Being a Part of It!!!

Take care!


Sunday, January 1, 2012

Well... Finally!

I thought, since it's a New Year... a "new beginning"... that today would be a good day to finally post about my Beaded Cuff.

I've been working on it, off and on, for a *while* now.  =-)
Don't ask me how long it took to bead it...  I really don't know. 
I don't keep up with that kind of thing when i'm on a project.

My husband would be good at that type of thing, though.
...but i didn't ask him at the beginning of this project, to do that for me, so...
Sorry.  Just suffice to say that it took 
"a while".  =-)

Part of the reason for that is that there were plenty of times where the cuff simply *sat* on my desk... waiting...  

Waiting for me to pick it up again.

Then, there were those times when i worked on it for *hours* at a time:
boring days,
and most especially on those 4-hour rides to Beaufort, SC to see my Mom.
*Lots* of productive time then!

Before i let you see it (assuming you haven't already scrolled down of your own accord!) please allow me to babble a bit.  =-)

I don't remember how i got the idea for this thing, but once i did, i just *had* to make it.  =-)

I have some crushed velvet in my stash that i've had for a looong time.  
I don't even remember where it came from, or how long i've had it.  I *think* i got it when i used to make purses/bags.  
I got the idea to use up some of these beads i have lying around in my cabinet.  
(I've had them a long time too.  I've always wanted to do something with them, but never knew *what*...) 

I decided i wanted to make me a beaded cuff on that velvet.
(I guess i must tell you that it's not *really* velvet... but i don't know what it is, so... it's "velvet", okay?)
I originally thought i'd use a Coke can as the "underbelly"... the "base"... the "stabilizer" for the cuff,but as i went on with the project, i found out i didn't really wanna do it that way.

Pause some more.

Talk to friends about "what to do", "what to do".

My friend Pat (from the Y) suggested what i should use to "stiffen" up the "innards" like i was thinking i should.  I forget what the stuff is called, but it was BRIGHT yellow.  I mean brighter than Highlighter Yellow!  And it was kinda canvas-like, and kinda hole-y.  I dunno what it was, but it was some Embroidery or Crewel material that's a bit stiff.
Thanks Pat!  =-)

And, Yes.
I individually hand-sewed *each* and *every* bead onto the "velvet".

Yes. It took a long time.
It took a very long time.

I enjoyed it.
For some people, it would drive them batty.
But for me, i truly enjoyed it.  

It's a time to slow down.
A time to think about other things.
A time to relax into a soothing rhythm of string bead, poke needle, pull thread, tie knot, poke needle, pull thread.  Repeat.

For someone like me, anyway.  =-)

And once i finally completed the beading, it was so wonderful!
Satisfying that i accomplished such a "daunting" task; a project i've never really tried before.   

And this is something that's "All Me"!

I didn't have any type of "pattern".
No Tutorial or Instructions from anyone else.
No Pattern whatsoever!

This one is "All Me", Baby!  =-)

So, please enjoy!   =-)

Wendy's Beaded Cuff in the late afternoon Sun
But... See that little "string" up there?
On the upper Left?
That's where a bead has already been broken off!
Can you believe it?!  I've only worn it like 3 or 4 times, and
i've already *broken* it!
I think i can fix it, though.
And i'm STILL wearing it!
ONE little broke-off bead is NOT gonna make me STOP wearing it!
I love it too much.

Yep.  There's that little "string"...
Taunting me again
"Nah-nah, nah-nah, nah!" and sticking its tongue out at me.
Well, i'm STILL wearing it, so

 Why, yes, it *does* close with Snaps!    (I  originally thought about Velcro, but changed my mind)

 See?!  Those *are* Snaps.  =-)

 And the Inside shot...

 The Centerfold Shot  =-)
(Does this count as "Porn"?)

I've "busted" a bead off of it already!
I'll have to see if i can fix that before any more come off!
But i  love it anyway!  =-)

So, i hope you've enjoyed this post!
I'm pretty proud of my Beaded Cuff (if you couldn't already tell).  =-)
And it goes with pretty much *everything*
which is always a Bonus.  =-)

And the truly flattering part?
My little sister, Z?
The *really* *picky* sister?
She LOVES it and wants me to make one for her!!!  (Just not quite so wide...)

(And i take that as *quite* the Compliment!)

I hope you're having a Super Fantastic Wonderful Day!!!

by the way