Lessons

I know i don't share much, and for that, i apologize.  So with that in mind, hold on to your britches, 'cause
i'm gettin' ready to share!

I had the strangest thing happen yesterday, and i'm still affected by it today.  So i thought i'd "write it out."  For whatever reason, i can't seem to talk it out, so i thought i'd try coming here...


I've been wanting to get a tattoo for about a year now... Actually TWO tats.  I want to have "Bunny" put on my left wrist and "Kitty" on my right.  (Those are my daughters' nicknames, and they've always gone by them.) 
Well, yesterday Kitty talked me into going to the tat studio where she and her sister go.  I went to get an appointment from the guy who has done all of Bunny's tats.  She's always spoken very highly of him and she thinks he's The Best.  So that's who i wanted.

I was in the oddest mood on the way there; kidding a LOT, smart-ass and almost giddy!  Kitty's boyfriend thought i was smoking crack or something.  I was acting and feeling Weird!

Anyway, we got there and spoke with Gabe at the front desk.
Everything okay so far.  I liked him.  Nice guy.  Cute.  Good personality.
...Then...
Then Bunny's Tat Guy came to the front desk.
I thought everything was alright...
He seemed okay...
I made the appointment and paid my $40 down-payment.
...Then...
On the way back to the car, i just didn't feel right.
I felt like i shouldn't have done that.  I shouldn't have made that appointment.  I don't know how to explain it, but i felt like i just made a mistake.

On the drive back home, i wasn't saying a word.  It was like there was a black curtain around me.  Somehow i'd just done something wrong.
And then i noticed that my stomach was tied up in knots.
I felt vulnerable, and almost like crying.  Crying or throwing up.  Or both.
I felt really really odd.  In a bad way.

By the time i got home, i had decided that i wasn't going back.
I am not going to Bunny's Tat Guy for this tattoo.

I'm not sayin' i'll never get the tats.  I'm just sayin' i'm not getting them from that guy.  And i'm not gettin' 'em from that place.

I have no idea what my problem was.
I have NO idea why i got such a horrible feeling.
All i know is i'm not gonna go against that feeling.

I also wonder why i'm still feeling so... odd today.
I *think* it may be that i've never had anything like that happen before.
Also, i don't know exactly *why* i felt the way i felt yesterday, and it's bothering me today. 
It's bothering me that i had such strong negative feelings. 
It's bothering me that i don't understand where those feelings came from.
It's bothering me that i don't understand WHY i had those feelings.

It's bothering me that it's bothering me!

I went to Yoga this morning, but i was still feeling vulnerable.  I felt like i shouldn't be there.  But since i was there, i went ahead and did my Yoga.  It's freeing and "releasing" for me.  It helps me in many ways; mentally, physically, and more. 
But i've felt vulnerable most of the day.  I tried talking with Boyfriend about it, but i couldn't quite put it in words.

Thanks for "listening".
=-)

Hi There...

You may not remember me...
It's been over a month since i last posted.  [sheepish grin]
I've been traveling and what-not.  And Life tends to get in the way of blogging, for me.
...that... and the Interwebs.
(I'm just telling the truth ,here.)

I've been doing Yoga since February of 2010, and lately, i've been wanting to "go deeper" and "do more" with my Yoga... whatever that means.
I'm not sure where it's going to take me, or where i'm going with it, but i just know i want "more".
So i've been reading a lot... 
About Yoga.

I got a "Yoga Journal" magazine from the airport on my way to NYC back in May.
And in June i spoke with my Yoga teacher about "wanting more", and she recommended a couple of books:
How Yoga Works by Geshe Michael Roach & Christie McNally
It's a very good book!  It reads like a story, but it has many messages in it.  I *will* be reading it again.  And again.  It was moving, and thought-provoking, and interesting.
The other book she recommended is
Anatomy of the Spirit by Caroline Myss, PH.D.
I've just started this one, but it's very interesting so far.  I'll probably have to read it a few times.  It's a LOT of information.

I started this blog as a place to chronicle my Quilts, and to "hold some memories", and i hope i'm not going to become too "hippie" for you (but i have been "accused" of that before, so...).
But if you elect to leave, so be it.
That is, and has always been, your choice.
After all, as i've stated before, this blog is really mostly for me.  If you get anything out of it, then... Bonus!  =-)

I'm still checking out many others' blogs, but not as often as i used to.

And i've begun writing e-mails to others.
I'm trying to listen to the "little voice inside", and to heed it when it tells me to send Love and Light to someone.

I've never really been the type to phone others (Just ask my Mother and my Sister!), but lately i've been "needing" to send e-mails to others who i think need to know that "a stranger" is thinking about them and sending them love and good wishes.

I think the World needs more of that.    Don't you?


So, before i "disappear" again, please allow me to remind you of "the simple things".
Appreciate the simple things;
the wind in your hair,
the sun on your face,
ALL the body parts you have that work so tirelessly (and thanklessly) for you,
the Day and the Night and all the precious time you have here on this Earth.

There are absolutely too many "simple things" for me to list.  I'm certain you can think of more.  Just sit there for a moment with your eyes closed, and bring to mind some of the "things" that you take for granted every day, and just
Sit in Gratitude for a bit.
...



There, now.  Don't you feel better?   =-)

photo by Bunny

I'll be back...
=-)