Happy Birthday

Today is Boyfriend's birthday.


I always call him "Boyfriend" on here, but that's just because of the 'anonymity'  thing 'we' all try to maintain on blogs.


In actuality, i've been married to this *very* wonderful man for over 28 years!


It's kinda hard to believe that someone could love me as completely and as forgiving-ly  as this man has... AND for more than TWENTY-EIGHT YEARS!!!!!


That's really hard to believe.


But even harder to believe is how MUCH he loves me.
How much he SHOWS me he loves me.
How, after all these years, he's still excited to see me.
...and i don't just mean when i'm naked.
...though, after ALL these years, i'm NOT as young and "nubile" as i once was, and yet... he's STILL excited to see me... even though my skin is starting to sag... and my hair is *definitely* getting grey... and my "girls" are definitely NOT what they once were... and allllllll the aging i've been doing lately...


...wow...
i'm starting to depress myself now...




But my point was!  He's STILL EXCITED!
And i am SO THANKFUL!!!


Thank you, Herman, for being in my life.
Thank you for staying with me through it alllll.
Thank you for loving me.  For putting up with my shit.  For "overlooking" sooooo much.  For being patient.  For adapting.  For listening... ESPECIALLY for listening when i don't/won't talk!!!


I cannot thank you enough for all the things you do, and for the person you are, and for the ways you love me.
I do NOT know what i would do if something happened to you!


And i hope i don't find out.
I would curl up into a tight little ball and cry myself to sleep for a looong time.  






Happy Birthday to the Man who may not be Perfect
but who's Perfect FOR ME!!!

August, 1983

March, 2011

(Herman's B'day @ Chima's)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

...and here's to 28 MORE!!!  (*IF* you can take it!)  

=-)

If Not Now... When?

(photo by Bunny)

"Everything changed the day she figured out there was exactly enough time for the important things in her life."


- Brian Andreas




I hope your week is lovely.
=-)

...Awful...

So i've been awful...
An awful Blogger, anyway.


It's not my intention!  Honest.  
But if there isn't much going on in my life, other than the typical "same ol', same ol'"...
Well...
Then i just can't force myself to blog anything.


I always feel like i can't make a blog post if i don't have any news...
or some new project i'm working on...
or something going on that "bears telling".


I'm slowly working on some embroidery on a bluejean jacket...  Still.  =-)
I'm also slowly doodling and what-not on an "altered" book.  I've been doing "something" with this book for, what, like 3 years now? 
Not 3 years steadily, though!  Like 10 minutes one day here, and then 12 minutes one day like 6 months from now.  It sits around a lot.


But that's how i "work".


But i AM working on getting my Yoga Teacher Training!  =-)
And it's KICKIN' MY ASS!!!
The first weekend, i was on my period, so i came home absolutely *exhausted* each day (it's fri, sat & sun).
But then, the second weekend, i wasn't on, so it went better.
Then this past weekend, i was on it again, so i'm *still* tired/not right.
But i'm hoping tomorrow is better... motivation-wise, anyway.  =-)




...oh.  Oh yeah.
I have some sad news to share...
Kitty will be moving out soon.
She wants to move out soon with her boyfriend.  Like, maybe next month.


I
Am 
Totally
NOT
Ready
For
This!
!
!


But i know it's just the natural progression of things as they should be.
She's growing up.
I'm happy that she has the confidence to move out.
I'm happy that she has the courage.


But now...?
Now i'll be...


Alone.


I know Boyfriend is still here!  I'm not saying that!
But he's usually at work, and i'm usually here...
By myself.
Just me and the dog.
And she's usually 


asleep.






But i'll be fine.
I know i will.


I just need some time to digest this.




I'll be back.
I don't know when!
But i'll BE BACK!!!


=-)